today is your birthday. strange to think of it, as my mind's image of you is now frozen in time. i look for you in the piles of pictures i have been sorting through lately. photography seems everywhere now, and i wish it had been that way then, so i could have more of you. or, more honestly, that you were still around, to groan about the changes of age and moan about seeing your picture on facebook. but as it is, i settle for those too few, long ago developed snapshots of another time, sticking to each other in boxes and curling at the edges.
contrary to popular sentiment, i miss you more as time moves on. memories are bittersweet. pictures still bring an ache. i find myself looking for myself as i look for you. life is good, and i am happy. but i know the world would be a much better place were you still around to share it.